Its been a year

Yes, its been a year since i lost my status of being single. Our first year of marriage flew past. I dont even know how we went through Spring and Summer. Before we knew it, it was Fall again and time to plan our next trip. Yes, we love to travel. We cannot really afford it but we make sure to find a way to pay for it. A lot of people dont make the efforts to plan and save up but if you are patient, you can fit it in. This time it was Hawaii. Boy was it fun.I was so excited to board the flight that i even ignored my mom in-law demanding to know if i had bought lingerie. Was all worth it. It was perfect weather.We hung out on the beach. I managed to snorkel. Easily my favourite moment. I needed a life jacket because i really cannot swim very well yet. My greatest fear is getting into the water and the feeling of nothing under your feet. People here think i am abnormal because i cannot swim. I was really embarassed to wear the jacket. I overcame my fears, learnt how to use the gear and managed to get into the water with P.Its a whole new feeling to see the corals and the fish in the water. And yes i sported a two-piece bikini that i worked real hard to look good in. We also did the traditional Luau dinner which serves the unique roasted pig and the traditional dances that include the insane Tahitian hip shakes. Right by the beach along with a crimson sunset.I always believe that we must learn from the place we live in. And I learnt that we have to work hard but also have loads of fun. I could never do that before.People sure do know how to have fun and i have tried to bring that balance.And i owe it all to P to let me go all the way and do the things i only dream of doing. We did the road to Hana village (several 100 hair pin blind turns and 65 one lane bridges) and stopped at one point that felt limitless. Far down we could see the coast and behind us, the mountains. I was standing on a cliff as our guide described that this was possibly the place Pirates of the Caribbean 3 was shot. It was spectacular. It had the power to just reset everything and really resonates with you. Most insurance companies dont even let you drive there but its nature untampered with. Spectacular, and not the tourist contaminated Western part of the island. After the trip i realised that i might have to make the hardest decision yet. Limiting myself to fewer career choices in order for us to be together. Yes, balance is a part of being normal. But i know this is right because P doesnt mind doing it for me if i go elsewhere. I know it would probably freak a lot of people out. For now i know i feel really fortunate for everything i have and hope the f***********king experiments work out ok. The not so cool part of being balanced begins now - work.